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An Empty Page

I am nothing without you
I am not ashamed to say
But sometimes still I doubt you along my way
I am nothing without you
An eagle with no wings
If I forget about you, I lose everything
My heart is an empty stage
O let your play begin
My life is an empty page for you to colour me with your love

It’s such a common feeling to be misunderstood
But from you there’s no concealing
You know my bad and good
So I am not pretending my story never fails
But I have already read the ending
And your love prevails
My heart is an empty stage
Let your play begin
My life is an empty page for you to colour me with your love

The words are from Jonathan Veira’s song Empty Page one of the tracks off ‘Rhythms of the Heart’ album. I like his music, especially this song. Sadly, I couldn’t find the lyrics online, so I had to write them down word for word. I have had this song for many years and it has always spoken me at many levels. It has often driven me to tears of joy when I listen to it. I think it resonates with me because the song brings to the fore two crucial realities.

On the one hand the song speaks of a painful reality of fragility and sinfulness. I am fragile because I am nothing without God. Without God in my life, I am nothing but a cosmic joke. Nothing more than an eagle that has lost its purpose. It may look okay from afar, but look closely and you will it that it cannot get very far without the wings! The sinfulness is that I am actually prone to forget this important truth. I often doubt God and his purpose in my life and this world.

Then comes the overwhelming reassurance! The song throughout reminds me that it really does not depend on me. God comes to me like an open book. From him "there’s no concealing". His love really is real love without holding back. He is not hiding some ulterior motive from me. But even more amazing is that he already "know[s] my bad and good”. So, I don’t have to pretend to be anything with Jesus. I don’t have to worry about being misunderstood. He knows me inside out. He knows that my story is one of failure!

In the end what matters most is that His love for me never fails! And because Jesus is a God who loves persistently, the end truly has been written. In the end I will live and reign with Him, so I can live in the here and now resting totally on His performance, and not mine! But it's more than that. You see because I am connected to this Jesus, my life is now a blank page for Him to showcase his creative power. God has made me a new blank page in Jesus and he is colouring it with His love. In some weird ways, it seems, God is even using my failures to paint a picture of grace and love in my life.

Perhaps this is what Paul had in mind when he told the church at Ephesus, "For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do" [Ephesians 2:10]. God has created me afresh in Jesus to be a colourful work of art, a masterpiece,  where his love and grace shines through. There is truly no God like the Lord Jesus Christ, who delights in coming into the lives of failures and colours them into a masterpiece of  art!

Copyright © Chola Mukanga 2015
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  1. Anonymous30 October 2016 at 23:47

    Every now and then, this song plays from my memory. I had it on a cassette tape for many years, but lost the tape. iTunes has the entire album, by Jonathan Veira; but, there was a version that some group sang that I really like. I just don't remember who....

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    1. Anonymous7 August 2018 at 23:39

      The group I heard it by was called Nutshell. I had their album but have been unable to find anything online about them. I think they were from the UK and it was about the 80's that I heard them.

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  2. Ralph15 April 2017 at 09:53

    the song is written by Paul Field and here the bridge is missing....when I think of all the time I've wasted...the high Ideals the crazy dreams.....If only every men could taste the wine I've tasted..we'll begin to learn what freedom really means

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    1. Chola Mukanga15 April 2017 at 09:55

      Thats helpful. Do you have the whole song written down?

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  3. Tim29 July 2017 at 04:15

    Thanks soooooooooooo much. I heard this song in the 80s and could never forget the chorus. I'd find myself singing it over the years and try to get the whole song lyrics, but in vain. This means so much to me. :-)

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